Still Shaking

The Day of Small Things
-Alli Rogers
http://allirogers.com/

I am afraid of beginning
‘cause I don’t know how to end
But you told me that the mountain before us
would become a plain in our eyes
So I won’t despise
I won’t despise the day
I won’t despise the day of small things

Even when you tell me…
oh, even then I’m shaking

‘Cause I am afraid of believing
The plans that we make seem so big
But you’ve shown me that we’re never alone
and your spirit will stay by our side
So I won’t despise
I won’t despise the day
I won’t despise the day of small things

Waking up at 7, class at 8, class at 9:05, breakfast at 10, class at 11:15, lunch at 12:30... go to class, go eat, go to class, go eat, go read, go take a nap, go go go... A typical Monday- at least for one more week... My frist semester of college is coming to an end- and what do I have to show for it? 5 grades and no idea what I want to do with the rest of my life. Do I want to be a nurse- I don't even like science, do I want to be a teacher- I can't stand kids for 8 hours a day, do I want to have a 9-5 job- I despise a typical routine... But I am really focusing on the wrong thing- ME... What do I like? What do I want? What do I want to do? Who do I want to be?... I am so self-centered! I have to opportunity to give up what I want to gain something so totally unbelievable that it would be more of what I want than I could ever imagine... Instead of focusing on my small day filled with small things, I need to focus on God and the day that he has provided and the small things that make up that day. Yes, currently my day seems to be monotonous, but then what about ME is so riveting? God, however- He is rivetlng, and His plans are big- and so much more fitting for me than anything I could imagine... so I shall take a friends advice, stop being selfish and immature and wake up each day and thing of what God and I are going to do instead of what I want to do... could it be that easy? I am afraid of believing that it could be that easy, that it could truly be that simple... you tell me it is, but I am still shaking...